There’s just too much that time cannot erase.

I tried so hard to sell myself to you, but even though you’re still with me I feel so alone, forgotten, unloved.
I was always there for you through the good and the bad.
But then you left.
It tore me apart, and my wounds have still not healed.
I have you again, you’re here with me, but I can’t feel the same way I did before.
I feel as if you are truly not here anymore.
No longer the boy I once looked up to but now the man I want to always be with.
I long for you but yet you are dead to me.
When you look at me there’s regret in your eyes, when I see you I feel like I want to cry.
Then why is it we lay on the bed together each and every night?
Why is that I feel like I cannot let you out of my sight?
Your touch upon my skin chases away all my fears; I suddenly want to be in your arms even though I say I hate you for leaving.
I forgive you for everything, crying in your arms as we embrace, my breath taken away.
I just don’t know what to say anymore, I regret feeling such hate towards you; I just want to always be by you.
But in the end I left you.